I'm losing grip of reality these days. . .

To be perfectly honest, I haven't seemed myself these past couple of months. Nothing seems ever exciting anymore. It feels like I've done everything before and now it just seems like a chore to me. As bad as that sounds.

I want things to go back to the way they were before. Last year was a hell of a year but this year has been pretty ace but not as good. Rockness and T in the Park just seemed like a weekend off to me. Don't get me wrong, I don't regret going to it, I FUCKINGGGG LOVEDDD ITTT!!! I just wasn't as excited as I should of been before I went to each festival.

I have my college induction day this friday (20th August). I have to be in weegieland for 9am sooo. . . it's gonna be a tough year with all of this travelling to and fro Glasgow. I'm determinedddd to get this done!! NO MATTER WHAT!!! I know if I put this hard work into completing this year then it will pay off later on in life.

AM I F***... working in Homebase all my life! No-way ho-zay!!



Peace :)

Done and dusted :)

Thats me done my nightshift duties. :D I'm soo chuffed! I got paid yesterday. I'm off work for 8 days (7 left now though). Everything for college is sorted - bursary done, got my course start date which is the 6th September! XD I also had my first night oot during the week last night, which I've no had one in 4 months because of work. It was pretty fuckin' gid!
I did my "disappearing act" in Hive as per usual. I keep doing it. Though my intentions of disappearing is just to see my other mates that are out on the swally aswell.

That ain't selfish of me, is it?!

Anyway...

LIFE'S GOOOOOOOOD! :D
x

Nightshift is nearly over!!!

I've nearing the end of doing my nightshift duties. Thank fuck!
I could do with a decent nights kip. No had one within the past 4 months!! :O

Well if you exclude having no work the next day or going oot the night before. Then I've no had one decent one yet.

I keep going on that I need a change in my life. Nothing is ever exciting anymore.
I was buzzin' for college (which is happening NEXT MONTH) but I have lost all interest.

Bad times.

I honestly don't know what's with me. I need a slap in the face. A REALLY hard slap. Any offers??... you can all stand in a line, that would be alot easier. Haha.

Nightmare! :/

I had a rather disturbing nightmare last night! It involved a little boy aged around 7-8 years old. He was always on his videocamera, recording random stuff etc, and he had two videos which I can remember seeing. One was of him playing about with some crabs and squids and having a laugh.
As a kid does at that age.
The second one was the worst ...
He was in a field, grass everywhere and it was really tall/long grass. He was talking away, not sure what he was saying but he was rambling on about something anyway.
Then random noises kept occuring in the background! He would turn around and check what it was, but nothing came of it... really eerie stuff!
The noises would gradually come closer and louder!
I could detect he was worried and scared. So was I, to be honest.
Then he finally went to check what was happening around him.
He wandered off... a couple of moments past then all of a sudden this loud screaming just came out of nowhere!! Really painful screaming! I was positive it was the boy. It went on for agesss.. around 5-10mins. I kept thinking some-THING got him... I had couldn't help but think that! Some kind of creature/monster! I really disturbed me!!!

I woke up and TRIED to forget about it but no joy soo far :/
I've been looking up on any interpretations of this kind of dream but nothing soo far. It's one of the worst dreams I've had in awhile. I just hope it's the last!

POW!!

RockNess was absolutely incredible!!! ;D

Such great banter, great bands and great memories!

I got to see some bands that I've alwayssss wanted to see live. And I finally managed to achieve this goal! :)

Fatboy Slim -Done

Crystal Castles - Done

Pendulum - Done

Enter Shikari - Done

Leftfield - Done

Hip Parade - Done

THE STROKES - DONE XD

Blondie - Done

Twin Atlantic - Done

Pearl and the Puppets - Done

Bloody Beetroots Death Crew 77 - Done

Also

KEVIN FUCKIN' BRIDGES!!! :D <<<>

This may not sound like alot bands, but... they're ALL FUCKING AMAZING LIVEEEE!! :)

COLLEGE!!!

I SOOOOOOOOOO want college to come quickly!! I cannot wait to start! XD

I just want a change of scenery from Edinburgh. It's about time something good has happened to me. The last decent thing (which was only a couple of weeks ago) that happened got cut very short, and... I have NO FUCKING IDEA on how that happened! *sighs*

Some mates, eh... pfft!

Jealousy and liars can do me a favour and FUCK OFF HAND IN HAND TO THE MOON!!!

I just need to let abit of steam oot as I normally keep it bottled in and that's not the best for me health, eh.

On another note...

I got my bursary forms for college so I'm gonna be a sly lil bugger and use a pencil to jog in me details so I can make sure I don't make any mistakes :)

Ta *waves*

Brap...

I'm still in that usual 'unmotivated Nick' mood. I've got soo much going on in my head. I just don't know where to start. Don't see the point anymore :/

I'm TRYING to think of all the goodness in what I've got now but I keep fucking EVERYTHING UP!! ARGGHHH! It's soo frustrating!

I'm trying to finalise my check list for Rockness! I don't get paid for another 3 weeks soo I'm gonna be careful with what I should get/spend for Rockness!

I just need a morale booster from someone/somewhere. Doubt I'm gonna get it but there's no harm in a lil hope...

I just need a good chat with a good mate. I'm not gonna have many mates left unless I stop being a twat now and again.

Ackwell, what you gonna do?! Sit in silence or do summit about it.

I know what I'm gonna be doing. . .

GID!

Alot of things have been playing on my mind as of recent. Work, women and this formspring website.

I'm trying to think of the positives in all these things. I normally do this in any situation I get in anyway. I'm finding it alot harder than usual though :/

Ackwell... I'm just looking forward next weekend which is ROCKNESS MUTHAAAFUCKERRR!!! :D :D cannot wait!!

I might buy myself a T in the Park on friday! The line-up, the banter and the mates that are going will make it one fucker of a weekend!!! :)

Thats all fer the nooo...

Ciao

(:

PAYDAY ON FRIDAY!!! ;D

Friday is gonna be a giid day! Good pay is gonna hit my bank balance! XD

Can you tell one is a tad excited?! :)

I've been listening to alot of new bands recently. Two Door Cinema Club, City and Colour, Artist vs Poet and a few other 'indie' bands shall we say. Gid!

"I can hear my train coming. It's a lonesome and distant cry." -> 'What makes a man - City and Colour'... I dare ye to listen to it! (:

Dallas Green is like my actual hero! Such a GREAT voice!!! I'm in awe with that guy. First off he's in 'Alexisonfire' {AWESOME BAND} and now he's blown the world away with 'City and Colour'... words cannot describe how much of a legend that guy is to me! :D

Enough said ;)

Hello-ahh!

Ye'll alright there?!

Goooood!

:)

Missed my interview for stevenson. Woke up after done a nightshift and "slept-in" shall we say. I had no portfolio to show, so there wasn't really any point in going. Got to start from the beginning now... it sure sucks *sighs* but it has to be done.

ROLL ON AUGUST '10! ;D

First post in actual donkeys...

This is my first post in actual AGEESS! :O

Need to stop being a lazy tit and post more often. Alot has happened since my last post..

Alot of drunken antics have occurred, more embarassing dance moves I've pulled off on night outs... you get the drift. :P

Got an interview for Stevenson college next week! AND got no flipping portfolio to show off :'(

Fecking Glasgow Met college have "apparently" binned it! >:( Just because I never went back through to pick it up, they never kept it! One is not amused with this. I went through to see if they had it but they said if I left my name, phone number and email address they would get back to me... it's been 3 WEEKS now and no one has contacted me!!! WTF!?

I'm gonna have to start from scratch now. 2 years worth of photo's ALL gone! :( absolutely gutted. Got into Met college for another course which is called 'Creative Crafts and Photography', which starts in august and I got straight into it which is no too shabby :D

Anyway rant over. Need to find more followers. I know how 'cliche' that sounds but everyone wants their voice to be heard now and again. I'm the same... XD

20 years young :P

Tis is my first post as a 20 year young fogey.

I've applied for college and actually doin' something with my life now. About bloody time, I say! :D

I really want to a get DSLR (for those you don't know what that is, it's short for digital SLR camera)

I'm sooo dam motivated to get back into college! Full time work is okay but it's just not the right time for me yet.

Bring on the student life! ;D

Last post as a teenager! :O

'Tis is my last post as a teenager! I'm gettin' old man, it's not a good feelin'! :/

I'll need to save up for a zimmer frame next year haha...

You don't realise what you've got until it's gone, I miss those years where all I cared about was very little things in primary school and high school. (Like playing tig or football at break times, I loved those times) I do miss school though... not soo much the education, just the banter that came with it :)

Ackwell... another year has past and I still don't feel 20 at ALL! 18 hasn't still quite hit me yet tbh :P

Bring back those days!!! Pretty please... ?!

Ciao x

Moonrise over Hernandez

I love tis photograph. It just makes me want to go out and explore the world and go crazy with my camera. Haha. I noticed it at college, when my tutor showed it to us in class. I was in awe when I first saw it.

It inspires me alot. I actually want a copy of it to put on my wall, I'm that cool! :P

Today was not too shabby :)

I found £2 today at work (that may not sound much but I'm soo skint and its actually gonna help me get through my pennyless days til next friday). Which, is also my 20th birthday !!!!! XD gooooood times! :D

I was also given a day saver on the bus home by a friendly chap, who was sitting infront of me. I didn't really need it as I've got a ridacard but the thought was very kind indeed. :)

Just when I thought I don't get much luck... it creeps up out of nowhere and slaps a smile on my face.

Gooooood times!

My highly amused self is at an all time high! XD

Yeahh I can get away with murder sometimes. I dunno how I get away with it :P

I love being a cheeky shit and winding folk up! It makes my day go with a bang :D Though I do get the odd feelin' now and again that I do take it abit far sometimes.

Pfft nahh...

What was I thinking. Haha.

I won't change, not for along time anyway :)

Download vs Rockness...

Which one should I go tae??

I've bought my Rockness ticket but... the Download line-up is wayyyy better!

Decisions decisions. I think I may jack in my Rockness ticket for Download. Yeah, I think I will :D

Bored.com

God I'm sooooooooooooooo booorrrreeeedddddddd.

I'm fully caught up with Skins now. Yussssss! :D Great programme... Now my next victim is Lost, I'm like a series or two behind. I'll be in hiding until I've seen all of them. Haha.

Tattoo ideas...

Writing

Smile, it confuses people :)

I'd do anything for a smile. . .

I swear you were smiling at me

Pictures

A robot scar tatt with wires within the wound, so it looks like im a robot xD

A tribal chest piece going over my right man boob and spreading over my chest... that would look rather awesome, don't ye think?! :P

Yoshi with his tongue sticking out on my right wrist. (this might be my first! :)

- - - - - - - - - -

These are only some ideas that have been brewing inside my head for awhile. Not got a final decision on which one I would like yet... Hopefully I make me mind up sooon as I want it done after my b'day :)

The guid ol' days... last year actually :P

Times like these I miss Ayia Napa and Sonisphere!

These two happenings, were THEE highlights of '09!

Ayia Napa was fuckin' awesome! The sun, sea and sand! Oh, and the alcohol! [dro]. I miss it abit too much to be honest.

And then there wis El Sonisphere... what an experience!!! I went to a music festival myself (it was only 40 miles north of London, so it wasn't TOO far :P ), as the peeps i asked to come with moi, either had no money or didn't have the time =/ but fuck it. It's their loss, the line-up was unforgettable and the banter was unbeatable! Greatest weekend of my life! True dat! :D

Now you tell me if you can find a better line-up than 'tis because I HIGHLY doubt it...

http://uk.sonispherefestival.net/wp-content/uploads/2009/08/lineupsidebar1.jpg

Now let's see what '10 has to offer us 'tis time! I doubt it'll beat last year :P...

iPhone, I'm soooo gonna own you one of these days!

I want one soooooooo fricken badly!!!

I may actually cry. I do own a very guid iPod Touch but, its no as goood as its brother/sister (I dunno what you would actually call it :s ) :P

Its a good wee thing (the iTouch) but I want internet, iPod and phone all in one! That's not much to ask for, is it?!

It's me burthdai sooon soo fingers crossed, I get it! :D

Seize the day... :D

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [x2 then continues in the background]
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

Ooh heyy there *waves* ...

I'm new to 'tis soo bare with me. I thought I'd leave my findings here, you know, the ones in me head! Lol. I need space to manuoveur, out with the old and in the with new :)

I doubt anyone will read this but hey, I don't care! :P

I'm feeling very creative the day, I just wanna "attempt" to write songs or even goo on a wee adventure, ken?! Take a shit load of photaes! XD