I'm losing grip of reality these days. . .

To be perfectly honest, I haven't seemed myself these past couple of months. Nothing seems ever exciting anymore. It feels like I've done everything before and now it just seems like a chore to me. As bad as that sounds.

I want things to go back to the way they were before. Last year was a hell of a year but this year has been pretty ace but not as good. Rockness and T in the Park just seemed like a weekend off to me. Don't get me wrong, I don't regret going to it, I FUCKINGGGG LOVEDDD ITTT!!! I just wasn't as excited as I should of been before I went to each festival.

I have my college induction day this friday (20th August). I have to be in weegieland for 9am sooo. . . it's gonna be a tough year with all of this travelling to and fro Glasgow. I'm determinedddd to get this done!! NO MATTER WHAT!!! I know if I put this hard work into completing this year then it will pay off later on in life.

AM I F***... working in Homebase all my life! No-way ho-zay!!



Peace :)

Done and dusted :)

Thats me done my nightshift duties. :D I'm soo chuffed! I got paid yesterday. I'm off work for 8 days (7 left now though). Everything for college is sorted - bursary done, got my course start date which is the 6th September! XD I also had my first night oot during the week last night, which I've no had one in 4 months because of work. It was pretty fuckin' gid!
I did my "disappearing act" in Hive as per usual. I keep doing it. Though my intentions of disappearing is just to see my other mates that are out on the swally aswell.

That ain't selfish of me, is it?!

Anyway...

LIFE'S GOOOOOOOOD! :D
x

Nightshift is nearly over!!!

I've nearing the end of doing my nightshift duties. Thank fuck!
I could do with a decent nights kip. No had one within the past 4 months!! :O

Well if you exclude having no work the next day or going oot the night before. Then I've no had one decent one yet.

I keep going on that I need a change in my life. Nothing is ever exciting anymore.
I was buzzin' for college (which is happening NEXT MONTH) but I have lost all interest.

Bad times.

I honestly don't know what's with me. I need a slap in the face. A REALLY hard slap. Any offers??... you can all stand in a line, that would be alot easier. Haha.

Nightmare! :/

I had a rather disturbing nightmare last night! It involved a little boy aged around 7-8 years old. He was always on his videocamera, recording random stuff etc, and he had two videos which I can remember seeing. One was of him playing about with some crabs and squids and having a laugh.
As a kid does at that age.
The second one was the worst ...
He was in a field, grass everywhere and it was really tall/long grass. He was talking away, not sure what he was saying but he was rambling on about something anyway.
Then random noises kept occuring in the background! He would turn around and check what it was, but nothing came of it... really eerie stuff!
The noises would gradually come closer and louder!
I could detect he was worried and scared. So was I, to be honest.
Then he finally went to check what was happening around him.
He wandered off... a couple of moments past then all of a sudden this loud screaming just came out of nowhere!! Really painful screaming! I was positive it was the boy. It went on for agesss.. around 5-10mins. I kept thinking some-THING got him... I had couldn't help but think that! Some kind of creature/monster! I really disturbed me!!!

I woke up and TRIED to forget about it but no joy soo far :/
I've been looking up on any interpretations of this kind of dream but nothing soo far. It's one of the worst dreams I've had in awhile. I just hope it's the last!

POW!!

RockNess was absolutely incredible!!! ;D

Such great banter, great bands and great memories!

I got to see some bands that I've alwayssss wanted to see live. And I finally managed to achieve this goal! :)

Fatboy Slim -Done

Crystal Castles - Done

Pendulum - Done

Enter Shikari - Done

Leftfield - Done

Hip Parade - Done

THE STROKES - DONE XD

Blondie - Done

Twin Atlantic - Done

Pearl and the Puppets - Done

Bloody Beetroots Death Crew 77 - Done

Also

KEVIN FUCKIN' BRIDGES!!! :D <<<>

This may not sound like alot bands, but... they're ALL FUCKING AMAZING LIVEEEE!! :)

COLLEGE!!!

I SOOOOOOOOOO want college to come quickly!! I cannot wait to start! XD

I just want a change of scenery from Edinburgh. It's about time something good has happened to me. The last decent thing (which was only a couple of weeks ago) that happened got cut very short, and... I have NO FUCKING IDEA on how that happened! *sighs*

Some mates, eh... pfft!

Jealousy and liars can do me a favour and FUCK OFF HAND IN HAND TO THE MOON!!!

I just need to let abit of steam oot as I normally keep it bottled in and that's not the best for me health, eh.

On another note...

I got my bursary forms for college so I'm gonna be a sly lil bugger and use a pencil to jog in me details so I can make sure I don't make any mistakes :)

Ta *waves*

Brap...

I'm still in that usual 'unmotivated Nick' mood. I've got soo much going on in my head. I just don't know where to start. Don't see the point anymore :/

I'm TRYING to think of all the goodness in what I've got now but I keep fucking EVERYTHING UP!! ARGGHHH! It's soo frustrating!

I'm trying to finalise my check list for Rockness! I don't get paid for another 3 weeks soo I'm gonna be careful with what I should get/spend for Rockness!

I just need a morale booster from someone/somewhere. Doubt I'm gonna get it but there's no harm in a lil hope...

I just need a good chat with a good mate. I'm not gonna have many mates left unless I stop being a twat now and again.

Ackwell, what you gonna do?! Sit in silence or do summit about it.

I know what I'm gonna be doing. . .